I’m reporting live from my living room, where I’ve spent pretty much the past 48 hours. Yesterday I woke up feeling a little iffy…then took a serious turn for the worse around 9AM…and then even worse at noon. I had some sort of horrific stomach/flu/fever situation that I would never wish upon anyone. I’m pretty sure it was building up all week, as my anxiety often spikes right before I get sick…and that’s just what happened. Plus, I was supposed to present at Hope and Inspiration at Walden Behavioral Care yesterday and had to cancel 2 hours before. I hate feeling like I let people down, but there was no way I could have made it. UGH. I basically had to lay on the couch all day until my back started to ache and then moved to the floor, where I fell asleep and stayed until 8 this morning. Luckily, I had my faithful guard cats to make sure I was breathing and take care of me!
Being sick always challenges ED for me. Lack of appetite and scathing bouts of nausea do not make it easy to maintain caloric intake. For most people, being sick means listening to your body and getting back to normal when you feel better. For people who have struggled with ED, being sick can be a a REALLY good excuse to fall back into the restriction cycle. Even the media says we should!
But being sick is not a diet. At all. And it’s also no reason to fall of my recovery train! So yeah, yesterday was definitely a low intake day…but I also didn’t move from my 1 position on the couch (except for moving to the floor). I gave my body what it needed, which included fluids, sleep and a lot of bitching and moaning. I got a solid 14 hours of sleep last night and woke up like a new woman! My appetite is still a little suppressed, but I’m trying hard to fight against those ED thoughts to continue my restriction through today. I feel weak and tired, which is my least favorite feeling. Yesterday I was talking (read: whining) to my dad that I wanted to sit outside, but the deck chairs were still in the garage and I didn’t have the strength to carry them up the stairs. He laughed and said I should be sure to tell all my F&S readers about how little I could lift! Well today, with a little more fuel in me, I was able to carry 2 up and read outside for an hour! SO THERE!
In other news, this may sound counter-productive as I’m always preaching the power of internal thought, but I wanted to talk a little about the power of make up. I don’t wear a ton, but I really feel like it can enhance natural features and when you’re having a kinda shitty (or sick!) day, a little make up can make a big difference. Today I woke up feeling much better than yesterday, but I still wasn’t lookin’ so hot. My skin gets really agitated when I get sick, especially when I get a fever, so I was super splotchy, pale and sad looking. This is what just a little bit of make up and about 5 minutes can do:
Here’s what I’m wearing:
Foundation/Concealer: Bobbi Brown Foundation Stick
Highligher: Femme Couture Tone Corrector Stick in Pink
Brows: Styli-Style Flat Stick
Mascara: Benefit They’re Real!
Lipgloss: Lancome Juicy Tube in Raspberry Ice
So as you can see, it’s not much…just a little concealing, highlighting, contouring and glossing. This is pretty much my go-to routine and I like that it’s a mix of department store and drugstore brands. Looks good, if I do say so myself 😉
That’s it for me…I gotta go eat!